| chapter thirty-seven |
[Nov. 13th, 2008|05:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  grumpy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the used - buried myself alive | ] |
I've received word that Singapore Post sent my shoes back to my seller claiming I didn't collect it. Honestly, I called and checked for four fucking weeks and they told me to wait for another delivery notice to come. It didn't arrive.
Fuck you Singapore Post. |
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| chapter thirty-six |
[Nov. 11th, 2008|07:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | angels and airwaves - call to arms | ] |
The problem with online shopping is the arrival of the things you've purchased.
After years of searching, I've found my beloved ultra rare limited edition London sneakers for sale. And better yet, BRAND NEW. Purchasing it was one thing. Arriving here is another story together. I'm trying to be optimistic here but the suspense is seriously tearing me apart.
What's worse is that I saw a student in NYP wearing the exact same pair. I totally freaked out. It was so bad that it broke my concentration for that particular day. I kept thinking that the postman must have delivered my shoes to his house.
For one thing, that shoe was discontinued in the year 2001 = SUPER RARE. If it was someone wearing it in town, I wouldn't really care but in my school?! I don't believe in coincidence. And his shoes were brand new! Sigh. Where is my pair?
I hope my shoes arrive soon. They have to.
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| chapter thirty-five |
[Nov. 9th, 2008|11:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | let's get it - maps | ] |
Three words - Today was LEGENDARY.
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| chapter thirty-four |
[Nov. 4th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the used - i caught fire | ] |
I'm going devil lock all over.
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| chapter thirty-three |
[Nov. 1st, 2008|09:31 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | green day - whatsername | ] |
I woke up from a very weird dream today. It was regarding a girl from my past. I tried to think nothing about it but the problem with me is my clairvoyance with dreams. After that dream, everything just came back to me. The things we did. The things we said. And the most significant part was how she disappeared after Valentine's day. I never knew what happened. Since then, I just walked away telling myself "If it was meant to be, it would not end up like this."
But what about this dream? Why now?
God knows.
In other news, school's been more hectic than ever before. Projects accompanied by more projects. One after another and it never stops (I hope it does). And with my procrastination, it just makes things worse. Sigh. I've been having way too much fun.
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| chapter thirty-two |
[Oct. 25th, 2008|08:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  hyper | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | avenged sevenfold - unholy confessions | ] |
Avenged Sevenfold's concert totally kicked ass. True story. |
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| chapter thirty-one |
[Oct. 21st, 2008|12:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the devil wears prada - goats on a boat | ] |
I'm running out of options, leaving me with nothing at all. One by one, they're all ascending. Was this already predetermined?
Everything happens for a reason, right? I guess this is my fate, destroying and creating worlds while sacrificing my all for the future of others. This dark and sinful world is getting from bad to worse. And very few are noticing this. I'm no savior but I'll do my part in reconstructing this world, starting with the people. They're search for security in this tragedy will come to an end. However by doing so, I've noticed a symptom surfacing.
My remnant of humanity and sanity is slowly disappearing. |
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| chapter thirty |
[Oct. 19th, 2008|11:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | a vain attempt - i can't escape | ] |
I'm feeling sleepy at the moment but somehow I don't feel like sleeping. |
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| chapter twenty-nine |
[Oct. 18th, 2008|10:18 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | circa survive - act apalled | ] |
If I could go back in time, I would kill Paul. |
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| chapter twenty-eight |
[Oct. 17th, 2008|10:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  peaceful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | savage garden - i want you | ] |
The first week of school is finally over. I can't believe I'm slipping. What's happening to me?
I'd like to think that this holiday mood of mine is still here. I hope to get rid of it soon as that I can get serious. Reports are gone but the projects are here. And I need to start revising for maths. We've only started on the first chapter and I'm losing it.
And yes, the worst is yet to come. I'm not going to end up revising when the exams are around the corner. I've got to start now.
In other news, I'm still awaiting for my clothes and shoes that I've ordered online. I hope they arrive soon! The suspense is killing me!
And before I forget, the ending of Max Payne sucked. |
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| chapter twenty-seven |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|10:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | escape the fate - this war is ours | ] |
Honestly, I didn't know that the dish Bone Steak isn't REALLY steak. It was so embarrassing eating it in front of my friends. Especially with Nisa around. She was practically laughing at me throughout the whole dinner at her house. Sigh.
Overall, it's been great since we've finally had the outing. And of course, hardly any 'mee' at anybody's house. There's this trend of cooking 'mee goreng' whenever there's a raya outing. Due to that, I was so sick of mee that I decided to eat porridge instead. I know it's easy to prepare it but aren't there other alternatives?
For example, you can always prepare bread and chicken curry. What's so cumbersome about that? Sheesh.
In other news, I can't believe I overslept today. I was all ready for school at 8 in the morning. I decided to lie down for awhile and the next thing I knew, 2PM. And what's worse is I'm fully awake now.
I need to sleep.
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| chapter twenty-six |
[Oct. 13th, 2008|01:05 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | trivium - departure | ] |
School starts tomorrow!
And I am not really looking forward to it. |
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| chapter twenty-five |
[Oct. 8th, 2008|12:26 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | a vain attempt - remember your enemy may act like your friend | ] |
A storm's coming. |
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| chapter twenty-four |
[Oct. 7th, 2008|11:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | alesana - a most profound quiet | ] |
I rest my case. |
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| chapter twenty-three |
[Oct. 7th, 2008|08:03 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | trivium - like light to the flies | ] |
For the first time ever in my life, I never knew that a fling was of more importance than the boyfriend/girlfriend. I was so pissed off about this but then again, thank God that I never got involved in this fiasco. Like what Maverick always says, "It's not who I am but what I do that defines me." Well said my friend.
And in my opinion:
It's not who you are but what you do that defines how fucked up you are.
Please excuse my explicit language. Sometimes I believe it's necessary in order to get my point across.
In other news, I feel so exhausted but it's all worth it because I managed to spend time with great friends. And I think I should sleep now.
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| chapter twenty-two |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|10:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | mono - life in mono | ] |
I finally found out the title of the song that I've been searching for seven years. Yes. SEVEN years. Thanks Raj.
I recalled that the song was used in a trailer on channel five. The moment I heard it, it got stuck in my head and I wanted to know the title of that song. The problem was I had no leads. All I knew was:
1) The song was part of a soundtrack of a romance movie
2) The artist was female
3) The chorus was just "du du du du..."
I couldn't make out the words she was singing as it was too soft. All I knew was the "du du du du" part. There was this time where I heard the exact same song in the toilet. Unfortunately, I didn't manage to catch the title of the song due to the sound of the noisy water running from the tap.
I tried using Yahoo! Answers but still to no avail. Sigh.
I thought I was never ever going to find out what it was. I thought it was over.
Then today, we were all talking about music from the past and I decided to ask Raj since he has great music knowledge. And thanks to him, I finally found it!
Thanks man.
And congratulations to my elder cousin Ayn for getting her first pair Macbeth shoes! Rock on with your new Hunter eliots!
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| chapter twenty-one |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|12:06 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | irritated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | hoobastank - first of me | ] |
Either die a hero or live your life long enough to see yourself become the villain.
And I'm now in option two.
I hate myself.
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| chapter twenty |
[Oct. 4th, 2008|10:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | avenged sevenfold - until the end | ] |
My little cousins say they are allergic to ghosts.
Kids do say the darndest things.
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| chapter nineteen |
[Oct. 3rd, 2008|09:21 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | trivium - down from the sky | ] |
My cousin Bil is finally legal. Unfortunately, he didn't have much of a celebration due to his exams being just around the corner. You're on the final lap bro. Give it all you've got.
He inspires me sometimes, teaching me many things and I learn a lot from him. He taught me to accept others despite their differences. He taught me on how we're all the same - human beings. And he's super patient and has never been in fights or arguments. I envy how he gets along well with his friends who are all from different walks of life.
But teaching is one thing. Absorbing the content is another story altogether. I find it difficult at times. I believe I lack patience. I lack humbleness. He seems to be the complete opposite of me in terms of character. Whenever I hear his stories of his school life, how I wished mine was the same. With regards to mine, what a dark world I was in.
Lies. Treason. Hypocrisy.
The good news is that the pain doesn't hurt as bad as it was before. The doctors said that I should start anew and let it all go. Leave it all in the past. Yep, like what I've said in chapter sixteen. Let it all go. However, it was merely a temporary phase. Perhaps it was too late? Because whenever I think about it, I don't know what to feel anymore. I feel normal.
What is this 'normal' feeling? God knows since everything happens for a reason.
What I do know is I'm probably dead inside.
And on a completely unrelated note, time does not heal all of your wounds. It heals most of it but the rest is up to you.
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| chapter eighteen |
[Sep. 30th, 2008|01:53 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | bedroom | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | hitomi - if i were a bird | ] |
I can't believed I was moved by a cartoon. The storyline, characters, everything. Seriously, a masterpiece.
On a completely unrelated note, the fasting month has come to an end. It seems as though yesterday was the first day of the fasting month. Time really flies with Fairyland I guess. School's starting soon and I'm really looking forward to it. I guess the holidays were sufficient.
Hari Raya's here and I'm not really looking forward to it. I see it as a reunion for all me and my cousins and friends. All this apologies are crap. Once you do something wrong, just apologize on the spot. Don't drag it all the way till it's Hari Raya to do it. Honestly, I hate doing the apology speech to my parents. I'm just doing it for the sake of doing it.
Only those who are prepared to fire should be fire at.
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